Today is D day!

Well today is the day, or the last day before the start of a new day. I have challenged myself to lose 50 lbs by the new year. I am basically tired of being fat and tired! I have long blamed it on baby weight or personal issues, but truly the problem is with me! I love food, and I am mentally weak!  Don’t get me wrong I love fresh fruit and veggies, however I would much rather the food fairy come down and prep them for me to eat and leave them in prepackaged meals and snacks! The second problem I have is exhaustion (from my glorious fatness and school and work). I find excuses to eat bad or drink massive amounts of caffeine. A little revelation, when I study for tests I could easily go through two 20 oz sodas a night! So this is it, this is different. I want to be fit for my kids! I don’t want them to see me do the opposite if what I tell them! I want my babies to see mom is healthy! Sure I run and I run a decent amount,  15 miles plus a week consistently when I run, but I out eat the running. I have a goal to do a long distance race, a goal that has been engrained in my head since my days at GWU! I even given thought to triathlons, just small ones, but I want to run far without feeling my fat body jiggle! I also have a goal to run without a shirt ( no worries, sports bras are a must with the girls that are on my chest!)  I want to run! I want to fight the familial diseases such as heart disease and diabetes that have long lineage in my family! Lastly and for the most superficial reason I want to run to turn heads, and not for the wrong reasons that I get now! The kinds such as : look at the fat girl go, or wow you do a good job for a big girl! I want the look at her go, and look at how she transformed he body! That is the part I am doing for me! The selfish Carrie! So tomorrow is D day, and the day the healthy eating begins and the more focused regimen begins! Be skeptical if you must! Tomorrow is the day!